too often and not often enough

have you ever caught a glimpse of someone outside of their element? outside of the environment and character you usually identify them with? you notice them first, whether they`re alone or with a group of people, and when they notice you, sometimes there is a shared sad, embarassing moment between the 2 of you. it`s just before they try too hard, too late to be `normal` for you. a rare image of them that you dont always want to remember but cant seem to forget afterwards. it`s one of the few moments that youve seen them so real and honest and vulnerable, and the most disappointing part is that theyre ashamed of it.

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familiarity. some days it is extremely comforting and others it is just unbearable. yesterday was unbearable. i found myself annoyed by things as ridiculous as a coworker`s cough, the bus ride to work...the people on it and which stops the driver makes, boss #2`s uncomfortable-unnatural-looking jeans and his green sweater, etc etc etc i need a holiday. maybe friday.